anger is easy
i can curse ,spit, and hiss as much as i want to get it all out, and eventually it fades
Sadness is worse but still manageable, i can take a day or two off of life to collect my bearings, let it out and move on and eventually it fades
disappointment is a combination of sadness and anger.It’s a betrayal of my expectations. It’s a type of anger that not only is placed on the offender but also myself for believing in them, for trusting them.It’s a type of sadness that it could truly come down to some unsavory shit that i believed i could avoid altogether because “they wouldn’t do that … right”. This feeling never fades, it can be reconciled temporarily,but it will never be the same after. Your mistake has planted a seed of doubt that will forever thrive in the recesses of my mind no matter how big or small .
but i guess that’s where trust comes in to play, see now that you’ve fucked me over, disappointed me, eventually i have to put it back in you right?? but it’s not like before. Before i trusted you to not fuck up, but now i have to trust you to learn from your mistake AND not do anything else.
which puts me in an even more vulnerable position
and fuck do i hate vulnerability
i think practice and experimentation isn’t limited i mean they make…
correction : there are alot of shotty tattoo artists that out number the good tattoo artists…